Smith Avenue

"In youth we learn; in age we understand." -M. Eschenbach

Ash to Trash

I’m going to graduate.

I’m going to pursue a career and start a family.

I’m going to create cherished memories and make mistakes.

And then one day, I’m going to die.

I’m going to be cremated,

placed in an urn that sits awkwardly in the living room,

too bulky for its place on the mantle.

I will become a nicknack,

passed on to my children and grandchildren.

Then I will be forgotten,

but my remains will be kept in the family.

They tell themselves it’s out of respect,

but it’s really because nobody quite knows how to 

classily rid themselves of a distant ancestor’s ashes.

My urn will be knocked over, 

shattering into a million tiny pieces. 

And someone will quietly vacuum me up,

throw me away, 

and pretend it never happened.

Icarus

Only the feathers floating around the hat 
Showed that anything more spectacular had occurred 
Than the usual drowning. The police preferred to ignore 
The confusing aspects of the case, 
And the witnesses ran off to a gang war. 
So the report filed and forgotten in the archives read simply 
“Drowned,” but it was wrong: Icarus 
Had swum away, coming at last to the city 
Where he rented a house and tended the garden. 


“That nice Mr. Hicks” the neighbors called, 
Never dreaming that the gray, respectable suit 
Concealed arms that had controlled huge wings 
Nor that those sad, defeated eyes had once 
Compelled the sun. And had he told them 
They would have answered with a shocked, 
uncomprehending stare. 
No, he could not disturb their neat front yards; 
Yet all his books insisted that this was a horrible mistake: 
What was he doing aging in a suburb? 
Can the genius of the hero fall 
To the middling stature of the merely talented? 


And nightly Icarus probes his wound 
And daily in his workshop, curtains carefully drawn, 
Constructs small wings and tries to fly 
To the lighting fixture on the ceiling: 
Fails every time and hates himself for trying. 
He had thought himself a hero, had acted heroically, 
And dreamt of his fall, the tragic fall of the hero; 
But now rides commuter trains, 


Serves on various committees, 
And wishes he had drowned.

Comes the Dawn

After a while you learn the subtle difference

Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,

And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning 

And company doesn’t mean security,

And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts

And presents aren’t promises,

And you begin to accept your defeats

With your head up and your eyes open

With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child,

And you learn to build all your roads on today,

Because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans,

And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn

That even sunshine burns if you get too much.

So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,

Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure…

That you really are strong,

And you really do have worth.

And you learn and learn…

With every goodbye you learn.

- Shoffstall

Nutella

I hate how bad you are for me.

Also, I want you in my mouth.

You give out very little sugar with your pronouncements.

—LaBoeuf